why-me

“Why me?”

That’s exactly what I’ve been asking God for the past week. Why me?

I’m speaking at a women’s retreat this weekend. In a little less than 72 hours a few hundred women will gather at my church, and before that gathering is over? I’ll have to spend 30 minutes on stage talking with them.

Me.

I feel so under-qualified. I don’t feel like I have enough of a story. Enough experience. Enough.

I’m not sure what I’m going to say. I’ve started my speech at least a dozen times. I got to page 5 once. But nothing seems right.

So why me? What am I supposed to say? What can I possibly say that could resonate with all these women? And why doesn’t God think writing it on a blog or a Facebook post is enough?

I don’t have an answer. I don’t have any fabulous scripture to back it up.

All I’ve got is procrastination techniques. Like writing this post. And making a pretty graphic for the title.

Lord,

I thank you for the opportunity. For trusting me with this precious thirty minutes of time.  Ephesians 2:10 says “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” so I know that you have a plan for me, one that I cannot yet see or understand. So I ask Father, that you calm my mind. That you would help me to have the words to say, and that I would be able to shine your light and reach the women that you know need to hear these words.

I know that you have the ultimate plan, the ultimate end game. And I know that you place us where we need to be, when we need to be there. So I thank you for entrusting me with this opportunity, and I am trusting in you to pull me through.

In  Jesus Name, Amen